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yeah, so yesterday sucked.

i really didn't think it would be that hard,

but it was. it really was.

i really appreciated all the messages, texts,

comments, and phone calls from everyone.

it made it just a bit easier to get through.

i had to work, but i really tried to stay positive,

and even got compliments from my co-workers,

which definitely made staying upbeat worth it.

i also went to dinner with the ex.

he really is amazing.

he's the one person i can cry in front of

and not feel like a crazy person.

& he helped me countdown until midnight,

when the day was finally over.

i made it through, in one piece, barely.

never have a i cried so much in one day.

but, today, is a different day.

from here on out, he's been gone longer than

he was in life.

i can deal. i can accept it.

but i need to deal with this anger.

still, today, i'm starting over.

i know now that i'm going to be ok.