there are knots in my stomach,
anticipating something i don't even know.
i feel like something bad is coming.
i'm anxious, nervous, unsure.
i could be totally off track with this,
but usually my intuition is pretty spot-on.
it may not being something big,
but it will be something.
or maybe it's just that i'm feeling
so damn lonely lately.
i've been a bit emotional and on edge
the last few days.
irrational & moody,
quick to get angry.
that may be due to the lack of sleep,
and the fact that my quiet little world
has been a bit imposed on.
hopefully that'll be fixed very soon.
we're applying for a new place tomorrow.
we want this place like we've never wanted
anything ever before.
it would be life-saving if we got it.
i don't care if i'll be broke
and have to eat nothing but top ramen.
i also applied for another job,
which i'm hoping to hear back from
at some point this week.
i've got a shoe-in, which is awesome.
it would be amazing if i were to get it.
some extra income would be
more than welcomed right now.
so maybe there are some things
i'm anticipating right now;
new job, new home.
ha.

well...i should try and get some sleep
for the first time in about 4 days...